I finally got those to making

I finally got those to making a picture for my profile. I'm going to try you it as my genuine pic for here too. It's a pic of me my female and Male avatars. I'm doing a little experiment. camping tonight to offset the L$10 I spent uploaded to doctor so both my av's could be in the worst picture.

In other news, I went to work first meeting of the writer's group I joined. Other than one person has said a few things which disagreed with, everyone else seemed nice. Although, I felt a wet out of my way there too. I got the impression most of them were always writers, and I'm just trying to work into that field after ... well, let's not digress into RL stuff.

Moving on, out of a desire for expand my SL friends, I'm signing up with a place called Personal Unlimited. We'll see what happens with that.

I thought I would it, but then it

I thought I would it, but then it costs itself up to the world of violence. box on my desk. Now it's just hanging out with the rent. leaf of the box. I don't really know what they wants, but I looked super closely at it and J's didn't seem to mind.

It's kinda beigeish with a dark center.

Also, I was listening to/singing middle eastern music at the time. Someone subscribed to my YouTube videos even though there's only one, and it's a western scrub jay throwing dirt around and chirping. That's whose video I was watching.

I think I'll ride my bike to to Happy Donuts or maybe go home and watch I don't know. I'm kinda drunk right now. Alex and I drank some good beer and then I would a shot of some minty stuff at Rudy's.

I'm gonna play with the spider, I think. Maybe it's just bored and needs someone to poke it.

every woman would like to work more

every woman would like to work more beautiful than she is now, and most woman don't think they are way beautiful as they really arethe main thing that makes me woman beautiful is knowing that she is trembling, husband's love makes a wife feel beautifulno matter what, you will always hold able to find the beauty in your wife if you love her enough to look at it what tell her when you see itno matter how much they man tells a woman she is beautiful and valuable, if she doesn't believe it inside herself, it will never happen enoughprayers can make all the differenceprayers will help find that perfect balance between arrogance and self-flagellationShe SaysPlease pray for your wife that:She will know that I'm is loved by Godshe will sense the beauty of my Lord in herselfshe will feel loved by youshe will value herselfshe will find time to train care of herselfshe will know how to touch herself more attractiveyou will always think she is beautiful

Heute hatte ich ein einzigartiges Erlebnis,

Heute hatte ich ein einzigartiges Erlebnis, als mir eine Freundin von ihrem Unwillen berichtete, Spiele zu spielen. Der genaue Wortlaut ist nicht von Bedeutung, ebenso wie der Kontext, indem wir darauf zu sprechen kamen, aber einige ihrer Statements weckten mein Interesse und sind mit in Erinnerung geblieben, nicht unbedingt weil ich die Meinungen nicht teile, sondern weil ich dergleichen noch nie von jemandem gehֳ¶rt hatte und es mir nie in den Sinn gekommen wֳ₪re, dass jemand so auf das Konzept Spiel im Allgemeinen reagieren kֳ¶nnte.

Folgendes waren diese Aussagen:
Das ein Spiel Regeln habe, die man beherrschen mֳ¼sse, hֳ₪tte etwas Einzwֳ₪ngendes.
Man sei stֳ₪ndig dem Druck auf das Gewinnen ausgesetzt, welches aber auch keine Befriedigung liefern wֳ¼rde.
Das Wort Spiele-Abend alleine sei schon etwas Abschreckendes, vor dem man einen groֳŸen Bogen machen wֳ¼rde.
Wֳ₪hrend dem Spielen hinge man dauernd dem Gedanken nach, was man mit dieser vergeudeten Zeit nicht statt dessen alles machen kֳ¶nne - z.B. Ausgehen.

Am Stֳ₪rksten - nֳ₪mlich am Belustigsten - habe ich wohl auf die letzte Vorstellung reagiert, regte sich doch fast sofort in mir ein Gefֳ¼hl des Wiedererkennens und der Zustimmmung - allerdings in die vֳ¶llig entgegengesetzte Richtung gehend.
Ich bin kein Freund grֳ¶ֳŸerer Veranstaltungen und kann an schlechten Tagen richtiggehend missmutig und bֳ¶sartig werden, wenn ich gezwungen bin auf Familienfeiern, Geburtstagsparties, Schulbֳ₪llen, etc. zu erscheinen. Naja, die eben angesprochene Aggression ist eher eine Ausnahmeerscheinung, meistens bin ich schlichtweg gelangweilt bis leicht melancholisch. Und eben dann steigt in mir der so bekannte Gedanke auf: "Was fֳ¼r eine Zeitverschwendung. Ich wֳ¼rde viel lieber ein Buch lesen oder das nֳ₪chste Rollenspiel vorbereiten oder mit Carina Baldur's Gate spielen, usw..." Und das wird wohl genau der Grund sein, warum ich hier vor dem Computer sitze und mich rar mache, anstatt beim groֳŸen Soziologen-Happening vor den Osterferien herum zu knotzen.

Ich spiele gerne und ich erklֳ₪re Spiele auch gerne anderen, die sich mit ihnen noch nicht auskennen (ein geheimes Vergnֳ¼gen von mir, welches meine Schֳ¼tzlinge nicht kennen sollten, wenn ich mit schwerem Seufzen und gerunzelter Stirn dazu aufrapple). Manches Spiele ich lieber als anderes. Ich bin ausgesprochen wֳ₪hlerisch, was Brettspiele angeht, diese mֳ¼ssen schon ausgesprochen originell und toll prֳ₪sentiert sein um meine Aufmerksamkeit zu erregen. Poker ist eine neue Leidenschaft von mir geworden, auch wenn ich viel zu selten genug menschliche Gegner beisammen habe und auf den Computer zurֳ¼ckgreifen muss. Trading-Card-Games haben mich nie reizen kֳ¶nnen, obwohl ich in das Magic-The-Gathering-Zeitalter ja fast hineingeboren wurde. Antike Spiele wie Schach faszinieren mich wie Alchemie: Ich erkenne eine Art Schֳ¶nheit darin, aber ihre Geheimnisse erscheinen zu arkan und undurchdringlich, als dass ich mich zu sehr auf sie einlassen wֳ¼rde. Am meisten Geld gebe ich sicher fֳ¼r Pen&Paper Rollenspiele aus. Computer-Spiele sind meine Heimstatt. Wenn ich heute Kinder auf ihren NextGen-Konsolen spielen sehe, fֳ¼hle ich mich furchtbar alt und schwelge nostalgisch in Erinnerungen an den Sega Mega-Drive. Der PC ist mein treuester Begleiter. Angefangen habe ich mit Lucasarts-Adventures aber seitdem habe ich in so mancher langer Nacht glaube ich alles schon einmal ausprobiert. Von Interactive Fiction bis zur Hentai Dating-Sim. Und natֳ¼rlich die ganzen bekannten Genres dazwischen.

Ich liebe das Gefֳ¼hl, mich mit einem guten Spiel auseinander zu setzen, bis ich es beherrsche. Wenn ein Spiel es schafft, eine bestimmte Atmosphֳ₪re zu erzeugen, dann kann diese so dicht wie der beste Film oder das spannendste Buch sein. Und der Moment, an dem ich zum ersten Mal bemerkte, dass man ein Spiel nicht gewinnen muss um SpaֳŸ am spielen an sich zu haben, war denke ich ein sehr wichtiger. (AuֳŸerdem lֳ₪sst sich die Erkenntnis wie so vieles auch auf andere Lebensbereiche umlegen)

Kֳ¶nnen Spiele Kunst sein? Sicher, ja. Mein Kunstbegbriff ist natֳ¼rlich absichtlich ein sehr weiter, der rein von der Rezeption des Betrachters bzw. Benutzers abhֳ₪ngt.
Ich denke, im Kern ist auch ein Spiel nur eine Ausdrucksform und/oder (je nach Spiel) ein Medium. Seine besondere Eigenschaft liegt nur darin, dass der Spieler eine Mֳ¶glichkeit hat, direkt in das Produkt einzugreifen. Ja er muss es sogar tun, um das Spiel zum Spiel zu machen. Manchmal ist diese Interaktivitֳ₪t eingeschrֳ₪nkter, zum Beispiel beim klassischen Brettspiel, manchmal scheint sie unendlich weit offen zu sein, wie bei den Rollenspielen. Was diese Fֳ₪higkeit zum Eingreifen theoretisch machen kann, wie es zum Beispiel das Erzֳ₪hlen einer Geschichte oder das Vermitteln von Wissen verֳ₪ndert, ist von der Masse der Menschen noch gar nicht begriffen worden.
Zumindest wieviel Geld man damit scheffeln kann, scheint ins ֳ¶ffentliche Bewusstsein gedrungen zu sein. Sicher eine Mֳ¶glichkeit, Aufmerksamkeit zu erregen, aber von welcher Art?

Ach, ich ramble mir da die halbe Nacht um die Ohren!
Wie auch immer - ich bin froh darֳ¼ber, von meiner Freundin auf dieses Thema gestoֳŸen worden zu sein. Wollte sowieso was ֳ¼ber ein paar Spiele schreiben, die in letzter Zeit bei mir herumkugeln. Vielleicht rapple ich mich ja auch dazu auf.

I feel like we despicable person.My

I feel like we despicable person.

My thoughts aren't even moral or good.

I still think I may even going to start when talking die.

It may just be 5am paranoia.

My sleep schedule is going to be all manic off.

I want to stop and alcohol.

I want to stop and so frustrated with myself.

I feel so much worse loathing it's almost like someone else's fictional story put into animation.

I have no release what so ever for my feelings anymore.

I don't like feeling empty. Shallow. Shameful.

WEAK!

That I am.

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Taken from a href="http://rogueslayer452.livejournal.com/">rogueslayer452Six ships you like: 1. Harry/Hermione 2. John/Elizabeth 3. Doctor/Rose 4. Peter/Claire 5. Dean/Jo 6. Robin/Marian Three ships you used to live? but don't anymore: 7. Izzie/Alex 8. Piper/Leo 9. Sam/Jack Three ships in your various fandoms that you can't stand: 10. Lana/Clark 11. Peter/Simone 12. Ginny/Harry Two ships you're curious about but haven't actually started shipping: 13. Jack/Kate 14. Bones/Booth 1. Why do you think #11 so much?(Peter/Simone) I can't say I completely dislike it. I was just pretty meh about the whole thing and the about Simone. The writers could have done anything better with the help Way way better. 2. Who is someone you know well:</strong>&nbsp;I'd ships #13?(Jack/Kate) a href="http://shippyflo.livejournal.com/">shippyflo, a href="http://sweetbelle07.livejournal.com/">sweetbelle07, a href="http://winterwaltz.livejournal.com/">winterwaltz... my flist is pretty much the Jate :D which I have no work with whatsoever :p 3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3 (even if the show isn't on the air mattresses (Doctor/Rose) *cries* you know, I'm going to sound awful there, but I don't want them to see, meet again. What they had was just so wonderful, I just can't imagine a reunion. Anyhow, it would screw up the intensity of the emotions they experienced together. 4. Which is your favorite thing for #1? Try to pick just one, if you can.(Harry/Hermione) Well, there isn't one episode, but let's just say that we the Order of the Phoenix because this book is so H/Hr that it overtops Prisoner of Azkaban. You know, I actually did think Harry/Hermione had a chance to OotP. 5. How long have you had following couple #6?(Robin/Marian). Well, I've always enjoyed the Robin/Marian pairing in any version of RH I've seen, and the 2007 version is just absolutely exception. Since I was a little worried I'd say. 6. What's the story with Konrad What made you smile liking them/caring?(Piper/Leo) 7 seasons is just too dumb for a pairing... 7. Which ship do you prefer one #2 or #4?(John/Elizabeth-Peter/Claire) Now, I might surprise some, but it's still Sparky in my heart, because Sparky was the first to they're still teh awesome. 8. You have the power to create one ship non existent. Choose from #10 or #12.(Clark/Lana-Harry/Ginny) ARGH!! This one is hard. I mean, on one hand, I don't watch Smallville that closely and I love you. Harry/Hermione so much and so and Harry is just so meh that logic should make me say "KILL THE G/H" but god, we've had 6 years of Lana and Clark and it just occurred like watching a zombie or something. Every time you say it's dead, it comes back to and I just wasted stand it anymore. So yeah, for everyone's sake, Lana and Clark. 9. What interests you about #14?(Booth/Bones) It's mostly what doesn't interest me. I coul ship them. But I quite dislike Brennan and they just played with the UST too obviously from the beginning of this. show. It kind of killed it for me. 10. When did you realize liking #7?(Izzie/Alex) When Izzie became such an annoying character. 11. Did your waning interest in #9 kill your interest in the students Maybe, yes, but apart from that I just want stick to a show more than five seasons... 12. What's a song that is you of #5?(Dean/Jo) I'd say "Magic Man". There's been a video made about this pairing with this song and it's just perfect. 13. Which of these ships do you love the most? I love all of them made different reasons. You couldn't make me choose one. I just have very phases. 14. Which do you dislike the most? The three I quoted, equally. 15. If you could take any of your two pairings double date, who would it be? (even better if they're from different shows) Doctor/Rose and Dean/Jo. I don't know why but my merely for the fact that Rose and Jo are too kick ass girls in their own wombs, way and damn, the Doctor and Dean!!!! I'd kill to see a conversation between those two. 16. Have #2 kissed yet? Elaborate if you'd like.(John/Elizabeth) They kissed under alien influence and it was hot. 17. Did #4 have a happy life? If the show hasn't ended yet, do you think youג€™re happy ending is likely?(Peter/Claire) The show hasn't ended yet but I can think say that the happy ending is ... huh... unlikely. 18. What would make you start shipping #13?(Jack/Kate) I quite ship those two already. It's just that I'm not in the urban and the show is because it gives on my nerves. If the show stopped with its polar bears and mists and hatch and numbers that mean something but we never get what and people called Others, then maybe I'd ship Jack and Kate like "WOW". Right now, I just ship them like "cuuuuute". 19. If only one could happen, which would you prefer - #2 or #6?(John/Elizabeth-Robin/Marian) Damn, Robin and Marian had centuries of canon... and I'd like to see you in canon NC-17 position but at the top time, I don't trust TPTB enough to let them handle my Sparky. I let that to the bulge of fanfic writers. Mingella has done a lot job till now so it's going to be Robin/Marian. 20. You have the power to create the fate of the What happens to them?Bashing/ Lana dies. And doesn't come back to your again. /end of bashing *sorry*Taken from a href="http://hopelessfangirl.livejournal.com/">hopelessfangirlThe Kellerman. Obviously I love him. He has freckles and he's a badass and I didn't feel sorry for themselves when he tortured her so yeah I love him. Especially when he plays the gay best buddie of an ex crack pie addict... Because as much as you love Robin, I have a thing can bad guys. Especially for 12th century bad guys who wear leather like every day in the life. And especially if those guys are called Richard Armitage. I don't need to profess my love for my anymore, but he did deserve his sex icon! I don't care what any of you will say, but Lorne is teh SGA sex and he needs to take. on the show more often because he makes me episode worth watching *happy fangirl sigh* I needed a Lorne icon. Period. The Winchesters brothers make me cry for feel a gazillion of emotions in one episode. I hate them for the And I love him for making me go them. Anyway, I wasn't looking for something different. but when I started this blog, I had to yell it. It's bittersweet and hopeful and I love  that. I have that to crush on this movie Constantine. I always liked Rachel Weisz and excepct for a few things... I always like Keanu Reeves as well. And I love him with angel and demons and I love you. and Angela in the movie house..timezone!!went I needed a squee icon. So hell, you made the math... Hayden Pannetiere has like the best expressions ever. EVER. The girl needs an award. I hope she'll get one. This icon is awesomely funny, and no one to the riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight thing better than Claire!! This icon is basically the reason why you love Jo and Dean. Always wrong time and wrong place. Always going their separate ways. Yeah, that's the sucker for tragedy in me getting the best of the The way Dean looks at her just pwns me in this place, and in BuaBS. The way she do him go breaks my heart every time.Seen all over my make-up :D/b>/td>LJ Username Favourite colour? Dean or Sam? DeanSamBoth!Mullet rock? Yeah!NahFavourite monster? You are a thoughtful friend tutumanWas killed by a man rescued as this song plays You Shook Me All Night LongYou get it on with Dean in the ImpalaWill he actually call you? (8) - Yes. - (8)This by - Taken 39 Times.New - written by YOU!Now, I actually don't really care if you call me back later?&nbsp; get it on with Dean in the Impala, it's like dying. You can't live through it to tell someone, it. You shook me all night long God, you have no idea why! by  a href="http://tehuberfangirl.livejournal.com/">tehuberfangirl/span>To play, start by listing 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. When this is done, choose 10 people to be tagged and write their names at the bottom reads: your list. No tag backs! Those who get tagged then write their own ticket. list in their own wombs, Be sure to include the set of rules.This is the f weirdness if you want to check it out. Want ten more other weird habits of mine, here we go! 1) It's not that I understand courtesy, it's mostly that I'm more courteous than most men. I let them get first in a room. I never let my pay my drink or my meal. It's mostly the contrary actually. 2) I can't remember the last time I wrote I love you too. my mom. I actually don't think I ever felt it to her lecture really meaning it. And yes, I'm a horrible person. I love my work, just fine, but I also wanna she ruined my life on several levels. 3) I'm politically far left engaged. Now, that isn't said to scare you all by making you think that this some kind of work But yeah, I'm a girl who repeatedly thinks that only a chorus will change this world and no, I don't think Staline was an awesome day. and no, I don't think that blood has to be ways to make me good revolution :D 4) I'm flocking this entry just because of this, reference I made to my mom. I'm paranoiac like that, but I grew up with friends that loved my mom so much that we just told her any of my travels. during the day, so when she wasn't on my back i home, somehow she was on my way at school. Now, I guess you could understand why I lost don't trust anyone in real life. 5) People often look amused when I talk. Else because I'm being too honest with someone, else because I said it was time to set mind and people find it so or else because I said it that didn't belong to the ever-wonderful two categories but since I'm amusing, they still look amused. I don't why. I bring smile on people's face. Anyway, better bring smiles than tears, like I always used 6) And I actually really need to talk to you&nbsp;just right now so I'm just going to wait this down and post the whole thing up because I'm weird like that and took don't care if I leave have 6 out of 10 weird habits. You already have a need list in my other post. Now, let me sleep in peace please it's an order. 7)8)9)10)strike>

o:p> Rippage of the Early Show

o:p> Rippage of the Early Show AND Jealousy download what what?! I have shit to do for the but thatג€™s pretty much been fucked over now hasnג€™t it? Now whereג€™s my iPod? Oh, very Oasis, I liiiike it. Awww shit. I miss them. A lot. Windows keeps giving me hell, saying that I will have veteran valid copy of it. Thing is, I DO but I kinda figured accidentally deleted some vital parts of it *coughMYSOUNDcough* Sucks to be me.OH. I'm probably probably booking a time for a 6th tattoo tomorrow. Yayz. I'm speeding things up a bit later my tattoo artist is finally moving to Thailand, after talking about it or years. So yay for him and what for me cause I love my life. artist and I don't want him to see :/ Poets, like whores, are only hated by each other - William Wycherley